hmm...

hmm.

2004-03-06T09:24:00.000+08:00

there are too many mediocre things in the world, but LOVE shouldn't be one of them. ~one of the most well put quotes I have ever had the pleasure of hearing.

2004-03-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

"Within you, I lose myself.
Without you, I find myself
Wanting to be lost again. "

i am sadly (one of the later realizations in my life...) the new-age fatalist. I believe in love at first sight. I believe in karma. I believe in THE higher being who allows the joys & pains of the fastidious yet unpredictable emotion called LOVE. I believe in soulmates. I believe that we should all be allowed a little fantasy...and that if this makes us all a little crazy, then so be it. I believe in bliss. I believe that you can kiss someone and not feel one damn thing. I also believe that one intense shared look can spark more than a tinge of ego-boosting attraction which will consequently make you weak in the knees. I believe in secrets. I believe that you know for sure that it's the real thing the moment you meet him. I believe that it will always be better to single for the right reasons, then to be with someone for all the wrong ones.

2004-03-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

i sit here, and wonder about my life. i pondered on something i read from a fellow blogger. (read 'em & weep, why don't ya?)

hmm. is it better to have a life with all the 'presumed' securities it brings (a husband, kids, money, a house...you know the drill...) or a life that belongs to you and you alone? i wonder about it at night, sitting on my comfy chair in my big house, wondering about the life i long to live. How I long to be free from all the things that tie me down. I long to just have a life that's more about living...i long for a love that's more about lifting my spirits. i have a life filled with security, and it's a life i don't want. tell me, what the fuck is wrong with me?

2004-03-03T14:32:00.000+08:00

The one good thing about never having been in love is that you don't long for the feeling, not having experienced it first-hand...you never actually feel you missed on something you never had.

At 20-something, that may be kind of pathetic...but in this woman-child's case, painstakingly true. How often should people fall in love in a lifetime? Will I ever find myself in that state??? Will I ever even find him??? hmm.

2004-03-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

My friend GEC had messaaged me this yesterday after (much to my annoyance- i refuse to be defined as such...as textbook 'romantic') => "Oh my God! You're such a romantic...i can't tell if it makes you happier or depressed..."

2004-03-02T16:06:00.000+08:00

quod me nutrit me destruit => very strong words that i adhere to. What nourishes me also destroys me. How true in my case!